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Sunday, November 27, 2011
Met this person yesterday that served as a serious eye-opener for me O: Shan't elaborate though, since it's about somebody else I'd feel like I'm revealing information that should be kept discreet o.o
Went shopping for my MTDC clothes today o.o It was only this morning that I realised my jeans were dark blue and not black. Awesome right, I'm so attentive to detail .__. So yeah, got my black shirt and jeans, and my pipa teacher somehow keeps insisting on me wearing those puffy puffy dresses for my solo, but since I couldn't find a suitable one I just gave up and went home, not as if I wanted to wear one anyways o.o
So yeah, after the entire afternoon, I came back with a black shirt, black jeans, and a lowered self-esteem. Pfft .__.
SJ COMING TO SINGAPORE TODAYYYY! ;DD
Kyahh zomg wish I could be at the airport to welcome them, but supposedly the security there's really tight so VIPs exit through some separate and private gate which means fans won't be able to see them until they're out of the airport I think o.o
Kyahh zomg wish I could be at the airport to welcome them, but supposedly the security there's really tight so VIPs exit through some separate and private gate which means fans won't be able to see them until they're out of the airport I think o.o
Haish :/
But still,
SUPERJUNIOR <3
Was constantly spazzing over ukiss's Japanese debut MV preview at MTDC yesterday o.o When I replay the memory (it's a bit blur though, must've done it... unconsciously?) in my head, I feel super embarrassed zomg O:
Anws that's all, ciao~
SUCHEN ON TOP OF THE WORLD~ 5:50 PM
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
MTDC training camp from 9-5 for the past 3 days. Zomg why do I feel so tired, as tired as that week when I came home past 10 every single day without my afternoon naps :/ Pfft .__.
Can't believe it's only 10 days till I graduate from MTDC, yet I feel like I learnt nothing and neither did I make many new friends :/ Anti-social me I know, but haiz, still can't get rid of that feeling of chagrin that's driving me nuts :/
Guess my solo's confirmed :/ The teacher doesn't seem to have any intention of cancelling me o.o On the other hand, whether or not the solo goes well depends on myself, and that kinda adds on to the countless burdens on my shoulders already. Speaking of which, I'm in dire need of a massage now, gahh too much tension on my back :/
Honestly really worried about it :/ Some people keep telling me not to worry, and that I play awesome enough, but sometimes I get the hunch that these words weren't said with 100% goodwill harboured towards me, and that it's just that people don't dare to tell me the truth :/ On the other hand, some of them haven't exactly heard me play before so I doubt they know what's going on :/
Haven't pracced much this year, and I feel really guilty about it :/ If anything goes wrong, I'll only have myself to blame pfft .__. Just hope that I can look back without feeling to terrible :/
Too tired to even think of praccing now. Shall go back to sleep after dinner, ciao~
SUCHEN ON TOP OF THE WORLD~ 7:28 PM
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Last SL session for the year today. I guess this probably served as another reminder that the year's ending, with one of my usual Saturday routines ending today :/
Somehow I feel like I learnt quite a lot from this experience too, no offence, but somehow I think I learnt a little bit more from here than from Gift :/ I honestly felt a stronger bond with these children, probably because they come more frequently (: SL is really awesome, and I can't believe it's ending for the year :/ (Crap my brother just had to start playing some sad-sounding song at this moment .__.) Teared a bit while the certificates were being given out :/ With these children, I don't have to put up ostentatious images, I can simply be myself. Their innocence and childlike existence really makes me reflect on the pessimistic and misanthropic person I've become, and honestly, I really feel guilty whenever I compare myself with them :/
I sometimes see a part of my younger self in these children, and I don't want them to grow up to become like me, but rather someone better. More courageous and open towards new ideas, more optimistic, more people-centered. It somehow sucks realising that not many of my friends really know me, and I don't even feel natural around some of them. I think my actions in school kinda screwed my relationship with some people, whether or not they choose to admit it, and I really feel guilty. These children are able to interact with one another in such a happy and joyful way, no bad thoughts whatsoever, so animosity in between any 2 children, and definitely no hatred. Even towards us volunteers, or 'teachers', they treat us as their equal, they talk to us and play with us.
Spoke to one child's mom today, and I really hope that child does really well in primary school and gets into an awesome secondary school (: Hopefully he'll have a bright future ahead, and I'd like to think that I met him when he was young (: I wish the same for all the children I've met in SL, and I hope this wish does come true (:
Good luck to all of them ;DD
Mr Yeo also came today, was kinda surprised, but ohwells, really appreciate it (: It seems like he's really involved in loads of community work. Maybe he's like my brother, someone who sincerely cares about helping others and goes out of his way to do so (: Mrs T usually talks about her involvements in this particular field of community work, and maybe I'll consider following her there (: Bottom line is, I wanna do more than what I'm doing now (:
Got this "Most Inspiring Volunteer" award thingum, and I'm guessing Carlie gave it to me just because I'm the leader of the group. While talking to her today I got the feeling that she prefers the previous batch of volunteers to us, and I really feel guilty and abashed since I'm supposed to be the leader yet we weren't good enough, probably my fault there :/
Haiz, it sucks feeling like you did so much yet achieved nothing :/
Gonna continue SL next year and make sure we do better (:
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SS4 IS HAPPENING NOW ZOMGGGGG I WANNA BE THERE DFHLKSDFWEUHTKJCNVMXLOAWER CANT HELP SPAZZING WHEN I THINK OF IT KYAHHHH
SUCHEN ON TOP OF THE WORLD~ 8:25 PM
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Find it really hard to believe that my journey with 207 is ending tomorrow. All the dismal and sadness of this thought swells up in me. I know I may have been a sucky vice-chair, and perhaps I angered many people, but still, what I feel towards 207 can't be described in words. The feeling of being part of 207, is simply remarkable.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
Cried for the billionth time after watching the class video.
We're special in many ways.
Being the class which rarely wins any inter-class competitions (I think only around 3 so far?), and the class that is totally not bonded and pretty much almost nobody brings food for class parties. Oh and what happens in class parties? Everyone sits around in their cliques and ignores others. All these may sound bad, but that's unequivocally 207. It's these things that make 207 the class it is.
Better stop now before tears overwhelm me :/
I love you 207 (:
SUCHEN ON TOP OF THE WORLD~ 7:53 PM
Monday, November 7, 2011
Monday, November 7, 2011
5 years down the road, I'm gonna look back at 7 November 2011, and I'm gonna remember being accepted for History RA and rejecting it (after a lot of internal struggle though).
And I'm either gonna slap myself or heave a sigh of relief at the decision.
As for Geography,
I really hope I don't regret going in depth into the subject I love so much at this moment.
SUCHEN ON TOP OF THE WORLD~ 6:27 PM
I wish I was good at Science.
I honestly can't decide on my subject combi, so I guess I've just gone with what everyone's telling to take.
It sucks not knowing what I really want, whether I wanna pursue a career in Science, or maybe I'll just be an accountant. I haven't even decided what I want to take in JC two years from now. I don't have my priorities sorted out.
And about having to drop History. It just drives a stake through my heart (cliched phrase, I know). It sucks, letting go of something you love so much. Getting into History RA doesn't help either. I love History, and I'm not all that bad at it either. But still I'm gonna drop it just to take a safer combination.
Just rambled on and on to my brother about my I love History, and I suddenly forgot what I was talking about o.o So yeah, hmm that's all? I honestly can't remember my thought process now. Ohwells, tata~
SUCHEN ON TOP OF THE WORLD~ 10:51 AM
Friday, November 4, 2011
Friday, November 4, 2011
Farewell Sec 4s :/
Yesterday was rgco farewell and today was Sec 4 graduation :/
I just can't bear to think that this is probably gonna be the last time we see the Sec 4s around in school in rg uniforms, the last time I'll see this batch during assemblies, the last time they'll be there to guide us :/
Last year I could never comprehend what the big deal was, but this year I understood.
I remember during rgco farewell last year, I didn't exactly know many of the seniors, and neither was I close to them :/ When Michelin cried I was wondering how someone could actually feel so much towards a CCA.
But this year I've cried loads for rgco. SYF, handover, and now farewell.
Such different feelings :/
Last year Sec 4 graduation was merely a place where everyone performed and I, as a Sec 1, just clapped and enjoy the display. But this year...
I just can't bear to think that this is probably gonna be the last time we see the Sec 4s around in school in rg uniforms, the last time I'll see this batch during assemblies, the last time they'll be there to guide us :/
I'm gonna miss having this wonderful and adorable batch around to liven the atmosphere and cheer me up whenever I go to prac with a sour face :/
Like Laura said in her speech, it's the small things we'll miss.
And now it's also our turn to step up and be seniors :/ I'll try my best, for the seniors, for this awesome bubbly batch (':
SUCHEN ON TOP OF THE WORLD~ 8:31 PM
Really feeling ambivalent about my subject combination :/
Trip science geog, or physics chem hist geog, or bio chem hist geog?
I mean I wasn't that willing to take trip science but it kinda makes the most sense to take it. And after the interviews on Tuesday I suddenly realised that I simply love history because it reminded me of everything I loved about history and that I had wanted to take it since P4. Just made me aware that I'm not willing and neither am I ready to drop history now :/ But if I were to take history then I'm not sure if I should drop bio or physics :/ I prefer physics, but I'm not sure if my dislike towards bio is because of ____ or simply the subject itself :/ And if I take history too, I'm not sure if I should take up history RA :/
WHY'S IT SO DARN HARD TO DECIDE?
Desperately went around asking for help and advice today :/
But thanks loads to those who listened to my rambling and helped me ;DD
Haiz :/ Shall go find something to take my thoughts off this :/ Ciao~
SUCHEN ON TOP OF THE WORLD~ 6:31 PM